Busy, busy, busy....aren't we all in that same (or similar) point in life. Some days I feel like my life isn't my own, but more like it belongs to everyone else.
"Mom, can you sign this?"
"Mom, I need money for this"
"Mom can you wash this?"
"Mom....mom....mom....??" (this is when I'm hiding) :)
I wouldn't change a thing.
Am I alone in this? Yes, it's busy and often exhausting. I have the great privilege of raising some awesome kids and I get to be one to speak into their life. It's a challenge sometimes to speak NICE into their life, but that's a whole other story! But what an honor!
Do you see raising children like that? Is it an honor or is it a burden?
I sometimes look at these kids and wonder what God was thinking when he entrusted them with me. Am I worthy? Am I good enough? Do I give them enough? Am I teaching them good things? How am I damaging them? I have to ask that one...we are all human, right? We hurt each other, even when we don't mean to. If we're honest with ourselves, we would be asking that question about all the relationships in our lives! We can't get better at relationships without asking the tough, honest questions!!
I had someone tell me a few months ago that a lot of my self-judgement is the lies that I'm believing about myself. Believing that things will happen if I don't do ____. Believing I wasn't a good mom, or daughter or friend. You get the point, right? Ouch! Thankful for the truth, but it still hurt. I've been believing lies? It was time to deal with all that. Deal with the holds satan had in my life, deal with the destructive patterns that he was creating (and I was allowing) AND deal with those lies that I'd been blind to. I had to take those captive in JESUS name and speak truth to them. Amazing how the truth unraveled those lies. Bringing truth in place of lies....it's like a field of flowers in the spring after a nasty, gloomy winter! Life grows in those places when God's light is shown. Refreshing...
Take a deep breath, find those dark places, speak God's truth to those lies....LIVE!!!
I wonder if we all took the time to make this habit, what would our world be like? Would you be able to unwind and slow down your schedule if you weren't so busy trying to keep up with everyone (because that lie says you aren't worthy if you don't keep up)? Would you be able to see the world from a different perspective if you weren't bound by all those lies?
God is good...I'm thankful for that every single day. Even on those crazy, busy, exhausting days!
Enjoy your day :)
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